It's worse than the most complex physics problem, when you can't perceive time. You are oblivious of your position, location, action at a time t, cause at time t you weren't you.
Not funny. Who can I blame? Some physciatrists say it's not so bad. I think it's bullshit. I was okay all these years, and I ask them how can a break up, lead me to have MPD? It was only a break up. And I dealt with it okay.
They said, I didn't deal with it. My alter did, as I couldn't.
Ofcourse to make you feel better (like people do, whenever you are in a mess), they will tell you a number of creative people and geniuses who suffered from schrizophenia or MPD-John Nash, Vincent, Da Vinci, some pink floyd guy. But it's like saying, how you can be handicapped like hawkins and yet create history. It's a few in billions, right? Most people would live pretty much an incapable life. I am not saying I would be useless...but, with so much inconsitency with my own self, its tough. Most probably live a life in mental hospital or just happily deal with it like me.
It's not too bad. Not too bad, they say. Just living in a real life science fiction. Where strange things happen to you. Like movies and watched and got amused.
Crystal has always been there. As me. The bolder me.
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