I am in a cyber cafe, somewhere near my home in Calcutta, realizing, life without a laptop and internet is like half survival.
It's monsoon here. The sky is perpetually cloudy with drizzles of rains then and now. Still waiting for a decision to fall from the sky, atleast make arrangements of where I should go now. Half of the year has passed by in a wink of an eye, and the next half..I am quite a bit nervous to face. I want things to fall in place.
So many things going on in my mind, wonder why taking a decision is such a tough thing to do. A part of me wishes and longs to travel to Paris, be just on my own, and do away with all those bonds and needs. I am still wondering if I should study at Ecole rather...I don't know. The thought is tempting..to be in a land where no one would know me, and I can start afresh. And there, there is the United States, the place where I keep going back- Chicago.
Sometimes I am scared that I am going into an endless loop of the same thing. Not finding the right thing I am passionate about. I hope I do, I need to.
My hours are over. Will write more later.
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